3-12-10 Confused again

Well, the drama continues. The last time i talked with hospice, they said Dad seemed fine and they didn't think he would continue to qualify for hospice but they would watch him for 6 weeks. Ken and Hugh came over and saw Dad Tuesday evening and Wed morning, i think it was. Dad was way better than he had been on the weekend. Perhaps you two could write a bit to express how he was for you. I was not able to go over since until this afternoon and Tanya met me at the door to immediately express her concern that he was aggitated and confused all day, wandering, emptying his chest of drawers, hard to understand, etc.--as he has other times when aggitated. I found him in the TV room with resident John and Mary Lou concerned about him. ["Jesus, what's wrong with him?" was John's expression to Mary Lou as i walked up.] Tanya and i tended to Dad, got him to stand and walk out of the room with me as he was very aggitated and undressing. It was hard for Dad to navigate, as we walked, my arm holding him. He could not understand to turn when we needed to, could barely figure out how to get through the passage way from the dining room to the front living room, even though i was there, guiding. We got to the couch but he found it difficult to turn and sit at an appropriate spot on the couch and was at risk to fall as i was trying to get him adjusted to where he could sit on a cushion and not the couch arm. i finally got him settled, but he remained for nearly an hour with his head bowed to where he was looking in his lap or sometimes about 2 or 3 foot out in front. He often commented on places on the carpet like, "We really should have those lady's move," "Do you think they'll be ready?" and the like. Sitting there the entire time, i never could discern any context to his voiced concerns, partly because a large percentage was too mumbled to understand and partly just because there was no congruity from comment to comment. At one point, he began weeping. I wished i could discern what his concern was! We tried to sing a few hymns, something he usually likes, but he could not remember even the tune, let alone the words, although he did try to start a couple of songs but i couldn't figure out which ones he was working on. Eventually, he wanted to get up so i walked him to his bedroom, had similar difficulty getting him to lie properly in his bed, but eventually got him settled for a rest. Theron then called and while talking to him i observed Tanya and Dema getting him to the dining room with some challenge. When he finally was seated and bibbed, he dug into his meal and eat well. I then left. It is so interesting to see the huge swings. Today, he was bordering on being more like i experienced him last weekend, but not quite. I just dont know what to think of all this. They haven't adjusted his meds since last weekend so it shouldn't be a medicine reaction. I guess his baseline is just going to be all over the place. I welcome your comments. Merv